i really did asked myself so many questions
like

1. who are the ones who stood by you when you need somebody to be there for you?
2. who are the ones who you have been neglecting all these while?
3. who are the ones who show care and concern to you but you just treat it as a normal kind of thing?
4. who are the ones who text you when you are down?
5. who are the ones who you didnt even contact for ages, and their names are still in your contact list?

i got all the answers in me
you know sometimes when friend text you suddenly
and like just say some random stuff
you will feel happy
maybe to me la
cause at least they care
or rather at least they wanna know whether you still alive anot
but through SMS you will know
what is that person trying to say
maybe
he or she is trying to make his or her life easier
and maybe
he or she really cares about you
haha
comeon! like im not stupid
i know who are the ones
who really care?
and who are friends ?
and who are just someone who entered your life and left?

maybe there are people who i treated them as friend
and they didnt do anything to me when im down
im not blaming la, just saying
but i must really thanks them
their NO action makes me stronger

i thanks alot of people who helped me in my life
i am very sorry for some people that i might hurt them in one way or another

its never too late to realise
my family are always there for me
just for a month or so
i received the love from than more than what i can describe
i neglected them for 1 year plus
what i did was just hanging out till wee hours
think back
how many times did i actually sit down and talk to them
about school? about my life? about the people around me?
can you imagine next time
you are a mother
you only met your daughter once or twice in a week
both live under the same roof
when you are sleeping
and thats when your daughter just reached home
when you are leaving for work
and thats when your daughter is sleeping

like where is the communications?
where is the bonding that a family should have?

i am selfish
haha
in the sense that
so long im happy
i do what i want
and
sometimes even more horrible
ITS MY LIFE WHAT!?
you know this kind of thing

IM OLD
20 years on this earth

I SHOULD something more meaningful
to my life
and my family
haha

you gain something
and you will lose out something

there is nothing in this world
where
you can
HAVE THE CAKE AND EAT THE CAKE

work for it la.
you will find it worth then just receiving.

wen love daddy mummy and 2 bros. and my aunties and uncles

wen love grandma and grandpa

wen love the people who stood by her for the horrible 1 month

thanks la for lunch ytd then go back school, tag my board when you are free and stuff like that.

HAPPY 2009 PEOPLE!

WEN is going to spend the last day and the first day with my family!