haha
i love to see my PATRICK AND DAVID
i miss them la
i miss my daddy mummy and 2 bros
i feel safe here la
much more safer
these few days
i realised alot of things
things that i have done wrong
things that i have already did my best
and more
thanks for the people who give me a hand
when im down
also thanks for the people who dont stand by me
their actions make me stronger
in life
as i grow older and older
things i have to face
is like never ending
this is life
i used to be a very strong
cause i have the mind set of
i can live by myself
when one entered
i used entered
my life is different
i like change to another me
i realised
i relied
too much
but
i felt 幸福
this is a very special feeling
to have someone to hug you
to have someone to stand by you
to have almost everything I WANT
yah...
I WANT
things i want in the past
i will get it myself
cause is I WANT
but i realised
I WANT thingy is just like
when i upon request and i will get it
it come easy
friends said
YOU ARE SO 幸福
YES I AM!
but i found out
there is nothing i cannot get from one
and i ask and ask and ask for more
i become greedy
i ask for more and more
including love
one gave me the max
the max limit
keep on giving and giving
i just never be contented with i HAVE
never
when i cant get the things i want
I FLARE UP
like immediately
no chance given
i have come to this extend
until now
i realised
i changed
not for the better
but the other me
i changed ONE too
one become another person
whom i want ONE to be
one keep on changing and changing
i know there are times when
one claimed that he didnt do something
that will make me feel like shit
but i know
one felt stressed
one also human
i want freedom
one needs it too
the freedom i want
is all the while with me
the freedom one wants
is always with me
i kept his freedom away from him
the freedom he wants is simple
be with his friends
sit down and chit with them
do want guy usually likes to do
drive car around and all
all these while
i tried to explain to people
i tried to tell people how i feel
and im not saying how pitiful i am
i know whats going on
i know what i told people
they will say something behind me
i dont blame
cause
i myself know the content
they said im hiding
i am HIDING
if i dont hide
that means i have no feelings at all
if i can
i will hide forever
i know what i done
i know my wrongs
i tired of explaining
i tired of being like that
after all these happenings
i know who are the ones who
really care about me
i just wanna be myself
i not asking for anything
things i heard
i kept it to myself
things i know
i kept it in the dark
i just dont wanna be the subject
that people are discussing about
i used to be the one being loved
i now is the one being treated like that
i used to be the one who knows all
i now is the one who listen from people
i used to be the one
and now
im the one